Boys are Stupid

There are currently several men in my life, all of whom are driving me insane enough to warrant a blog post dedicated to them....

Dad....
I haven't seen my Dad in 2 years. I haven't spoken to my Dad in about nine months. In fact he's not my real Dad, but he's raised me since I was two, and he's been the only Dad I can remember. I only found out that he isn't my biological father when I was eleven... on Father's Day... Anyway, when my parents separated, Mum and I moved back to New Zealand but he stayed in Australia, where he met his current wife, a Korean woman with a young daughter. He now lives in his hometown, in Switzerland with his wife and now two daughters. He seems to have forgotten about me. Furthurmore, I found out recently that he is a herion addict and has stolen all the money that my parents had saved to send me to university. So now I look forward to several grand of debt and a student allowance. Thanks Dad.

R...
I dated R for almost two years before I finally dumped him. It was quite sudden, I had an epiphany and decided that it just wasn't working for me. He was devastated, but I moved on. It's been about eight months since I dumped him. On Saturday morning I was woken at 7am by the phone ringing. It was R. He wanted to drop something off to me... I (thinking that he had cleaned his room and found something I'd left there) said okay and half an hour later he turned up at my house... with birthday presents. Yes. About $80 worth of stuff from The Body Shop. I let him in and made him a cup of tea and we started taking. I (trying to be casual) asked if he had a girlfriend. Big mistake. He turned into a watery mess, crying that he hasn't had anyone since I left him and he doesn't go out and have fun because I'm always on his mind. Oh dear. In the end I sent him home (I had to get ready for work) and as I gave him a hug goodbye, he seemed like he wanted to kiss me. It was all very awkward and confusing.

M...
M is a guy I work with, who has made no secret of the fact that he really likes me and wants to be with me... I don't like him in that way. He's cool as a friend but other than that I can't see it really going anywhere... at least, I couldn't. However, in the strange way the universe works, I ended up at his house, drunk and then, ahem, in his bed..... We've reached the 'friends with benefits' stage. The thing is, I think he wants more, whereas I really don't want anything!

D...
A friend of mine met D through bebo and has been trying to set me up with him for the last few weeks. Turns out I went to primary school with him. Anyway, after one successful date, I didn't hear much from him and he was apparently going out with some blonde bimbette. Which was fine, his decicion. However, last Friday he texted me to say he was single again. I texted him for a while but then he started not replying. Then on Saturday I was having some serious car trouble, i.e, my old car wouldn't start and I couldn't move it from the driveway and it was blocking my new car in. My Mum was at her partener's, my neighbours were out, it was pouring with rain and I was desperate. So I called D (he's a car person so I thought he was help). Well, he was highly unhelpful and a little rude and left me stranded. I gave him the perfect opportunity to be my 'knight in shining armour' and he left me hanging. So... I'm really confused. I don't know whether he likes me or not or whether I like him or not or what on earth is going on.

Barista Boy...
Barista Boy is the guy who makes my coffee every morning. Every morning we have a random conversation. Today, for example we talked about Napolean and then nuclear weapons. He is incredibly intelligent, interesting, good looking. Problem: He is way older than me (I'd say about 6 or 7 years) and Bigger Problem: He is engaged. I'm infatuated. And I don't have a hope in hell. Ugh.

Ahem. Men (plus exam stress) seem to be the main problems in my life at the moment. Mayhaps I should give up all together and aim to meet some lovely new people during the summer holidays. Someone I don't work with, someone who admires my uniqueness, someone who is unique themselves and someone with intelligence. It can't be that hard, can it?

xx, Magdalena